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Question: Help me to get high with opiates..?
(Posted by: on 2010-07-02 04:30:00)
IM an opiate addicted person.SPASMO PROXYVON CAPCULES are my source of opiates.i take total of 36 capsules in 3 shifts in a day, 12 cap. Before breacfast, 12 after lunch and 12 before dinner. Im on opiates for past 9 years.Before going further it is imp. to tell u that when I started 9 years back, only 2 capsules in a day are good enough to me, for getting enjoyable, euphoric, very wonderful experience.it seems like im in heaven, free from all troubles of life.and everything I do under the influence of opiates, seems to me so easy and interesting and I became very confident in certain fields which looks like very difficult to do(like in social functions, where I can communicate with any one confidently, which seems difficult when im sober) when im not under the influence of opiates, but not in productive work like studying for exams, they matters, and should be at the top of priorty but I avoid them anyways, and start doing things which are enjoyalabel but not productive, like playing video games, watching TV etc.etc.. And it is also imp. to tell u that i was a very brilliant stundent in my school days, and always on the 3, 2, 1 of toppers in any class upto 12th standard(It seems to u , like im boasting about me but I don’t have any other way to communicate it to u, so plz understand that I have my feet on ground).Anyways, after 12th I gave a compeititve exam and get selected in one of the most prestigious college in north india(It is PEC, Chd.) in the year 2000.It is 4 years degree, which I had cleared in 8 years(thanx to Opiates or my week will power?). Well I think above story have little to do with my Ques.but anyways it is glimpse of my life….. My ques is…………………….Previuosly(well all the previous years, when I take opiates, )i feel very euphoric, confident, on a “HIGH”, ……under influence of opiates.but now whenever I want to feel high, I take 12 cap. In one go now(it is going about from 5 or 6 months ago), but I don’t feel high.In fact opiates start giving me pain, both emotionally and physically.What the hell is going on, the same thing(opiates) that gave me pleasure earlier, now giving me pain……………..Chemical is same, im the same person, I have the same mind…………….so where do my pleasure run away……………why my mind start giving the wrong information…………it may be that its tolerance limit ends…………..this is not true any information can be improved, it is a life long phenomena……..i want my pleasure back…………..give me that and u will be wonderfull peron in my life…………………well if ur are a person who is getting high, then ur for me…………….. blessing’s…. |
